Rethinking buddhism things and how the internet time restriction is going

In the process of rethinking about buddhism through a less literal and more mythical/interpretative method. (applying general ideas from Rob Bell and Peter Enns on reading the bible outward to other ancient texts that could be viewed as 'mythicized history') The main thing on my mind at this point is that maybe buddhism was less mystical and more practical than I originally thought: maybe meditative states aren't the goal or the thing to be chased: but that the benefits of buddhist practice are primarily in the tangible: the community, the sharing of food, the owning of few things, the focus on inter-personal ethics. Meditation is just a 'no tools' way to stay out of trouble when alone or when doing anything else might be harmful? (a benefit via negativa)

I'm still untangling my thoughts on the above. But the brunt of my time is still devoted to chewing through my library book backlog. Still on Nassim Taleb/Black Swan primarily. I won't attempt to summarize it here: but if you enjoy having long conversations with me about things, it might be good to read it. :P

Still keeping to my one hour of internet a day. Today I've felt less drawn toward connecting at all, and would not have except that I wanted to message a few friends. I'm adjusting to the idea of not looking things up throughout the day-- earlier in the week I was saving questions to google later, but today and yesterday I've felt more ok not having answers. I think being ok with not having answers, or with relying more closely on one's own fallible memory, and asking other people directly if they remember, is a beneficial thing. Beneficial for me at least, because in the past I've gotten harmfully obsessed with knowing every variable and edge case: of a game, of a social situation, of a person, of a historical event, etc. And the deeper one digs the more one uncovers, eh? But there are limits, whether with the internet or without. It's ok to not dig: a tradeoff between sating the hunger for knowledge and starving that same hunger for a little bit of peace through not-knowing-all-the-things.